He He I love this! And I follow it with all my heart!

Don't act or feel different just because someone says so! You are who you are and if people don't like they're just going to have to deal with it! =)

Woe is me!

Hahahahaha! I like the title! It's not quite accurate though! hahahah! I'm sick and tired of jr. high drama!!!!! Come on especially what's happening with.....Never mind! Come on were stupid teen's! How can we even know how that feels? BBBBLLLLLAAAHHH! people are stupid! They can go die! I hate them! I was saying that down the hall all day today! I mean there is like the "popular" crowd and the "nerds" and "sluts" and crack heads! NNNNOOO!!! I hate that I can name almost most of those people! I'm friends with everybody! Why can't we all be??? That would make the world A MUCH BETTER PLACE!!!!!! Listen to this please!!! GeeZ! Cheese sunshine CHEESE!

Letting almost the rest of it out

I'm sick and tired of having no one to talk to face to face when I go home! My family is OK I guess but you know I just need someone else to. You can't show emotion over text. I mean you kinda can over the phone but there is just to much I have to let out so I can't do that to someone..........I just do it here and something to friends and others that I can only tell god in my prays. I also write in my journal but for some reason it's not the same. And I NOT going to go and pore my heart and soul to some stranger that they pay to listen and "help" People with there problems! If only Nate were here. I could tell him anything and trust him to keep it between us. He really was my best friend. And even though sometimes it didn't seem like it we truly did love each other. You don't know how much you miss someone until after they're gone. That's the worst part about it. The acceptance it came easy but it makes everything harder. That's why life sucks! I wish this was just one big part I was playing to get rid of my life and I could just go back to the way things were but I know that's not going to happen sadly. I just have to act like it is a part. A big giant part that I'm playing because want's me to.

P.S. Sorry about the ranting AGAIN!

Letting it out

How can we make the world a better place??? And if we try........What comes out of it? Many blessing and Who will be blessed? You and the many people you helped! People are in need everyday! From natural disaters, finacial,physical, mentaly, emotionaly, even if someone just need's a good friend. I have many good friends. I try as hard as I can to help but sometimes it just doesn't feel like enough. It feels like I need to be helped to help! It's frustrating. And I can't even talk to most of my friends about it because I'm afraid of hurting them. I can't stand losing anyone of them! I try hard not to keep to myself but the more I branch out the more people I could hurt! If what happened to my brother's mistake tought me anything was to let people know you love them and that you are loved! 100's of teenagers were there and I realized just how special my brother was. He was one of the most important and favorite person in my life. I will always miss him and love him and I'm trying to get through and have wonderful family and friends with me to get through it to! I thank everyone for there prayer's and nice letter's. I thank all my friends! I love you and don't know where I would be without you!!! Love you all!!! MMMMMMWWWWWWWWWAAAAA!!!!!


p.s. sorry about the ranting!